I want to get over you so badly. I’ve been saying this for so long but now I know it has to happen. We are only going to be friends, nothing will ever change. You won’t ever look at me with that look, and I won’t be that person that keeps you up all night just thinking about. You like her or love her whatever and I have to accept that. It’s going to be hard to get over you, but it will happen. I won’t let another year go to waste because I don’t respect myself enough to get over someone who obviously doesn’t see the girl that will do anything for him is standing right in front of him. I will get over you, I don’t know how long it will take, but you better bet your ass I will find someone that deserves me, not you… You won’t ever have me, and to be honest it doesn’t kill me anymore. I am worth so much more than waiting for you. Have a fun life and relationship with her, but when you two break up for the third time, don’t say I didn’t tell you.

the way he talks to me, omg. i just don’t know what to do. honestly when i see him first thing in the morning my heart skips a beat. i have never felt this way about someone, and its weird. 

for some reason i just can’t get over him. as much as i try, my heart literally won’t let me. i know i would be better off not ever wanting to be with him, but i can’t. you can’t help who you like, but i need to. i really need to get over him, and its harder to get over someone when you never had anything with them. there are so many things i would redo, like the night i could have kissed him, i would’ve done it. i think i wouldn’t have distanced myself from him after we were good friends in grade 8. i wish we talked the same way, but it’s hard to when you like them. whenever i walk with him to class i feel like nobody else is around, but to know that he doesn’t feel that way makes it so much harder. i don’t know how or when i’m going to get over him, but i know i will. someday